i've heard that recovery is possible...i've even seen it. but i'm no longer convinced that I can recover. too many years, too many ingrained behaviors, too many broken relationships...
i'm writing this, because i've read so many books - stories of great triumphs, meant to be motivational (see, i recovered, and you can too!) that just end up falling flat. Because it's different for everyone, comparisons are too easy.
i've spent more than 12 years in the guts of an eating disorder. it's chewed me up but not yet spit me out. i'm stuck.
over a year since my first -and only- post...wish i could report that things are much different.
ReplyDeletepretty much the same now as last year...except that i have gained a fair few lbs...and i can now trust that i will wake up in the morning (i havent always been so certain of that in the past)