i've heard that recovery is possible...i've even seen it. but i'm no longer convinced that I can recover. too many years, too many ingrained behaviors, too many broken relationships...
i'm writing this, because i've read so many books - stories of great triumphs, meant to be motivational (see, i recovered, and you can too!) that just end up falling flat. Because it's different for everyone, comparisons are too easy.
i've spent more than 12 years in the guts of an eating disorder. it's chewed me up but not yet spit me out. i'm stuck.
